from
Secret Cedar Room EP,
released October 5, 2010
you will not fade for me
you will not swim
how do you ask a bird to meet you
at the ocean's floor
down to the core of me
I thought I was safe
sleeping here under the ground
now what can i do
I'm sorry that you are drinking again
I'm sorry you can't see inside my chest
wishbone, crack it open
watch me struggle against
the truth lodged in my lungs
as we circumvent
our circumstance
it's just a dodge
oh it's just a cheat
no matter how close I hold my cards
to my chest
you'll still be here
with xray glasses on
dealing the hands
so now what can i do
there's a secret cedar room
locked inside my ribs
it houses all the guilt
packed away in cardboard boxes
but two hummingbirds still live
there in their rusted birdcages
they buzz against the walls
how they beat against the walls
oh my heart against these walls
please take this flame from me
it's burning my throat
I don't need this harm
when all I've got's a thin armor of skin
someday I'll want what I've got
and you'll get what you want
the scales level out
but for now what can I do
I'm sorry that you are drinking again
I'm sorry you can't see inside my chest
wishbone, crack it open
watch me struggle against
the truth lodged in my lungs
as I outrun
our circumstance